Hi Everyone! I have been on a hibernate mode for a couple of days now. I can't really find time for it because of work demand. And now, since I'm done with my task and were only waiting to head in Laguna at late lunch to meet with our agents there, I am getting a chance to sneak around and type my whereabouts. My work don''t really demand too much time, even my sleep isn't so deprived since I could sleep 7-8 hours depending on my ability to fall asleep easily at night. But my time physiologically and emotionally does not permit me to do so. If you know how it is to feel deprived of so many things that it drained your energy to be able to move and do another things aside from important errands in a day. Anyway, in spite me experiencing this anxiety of the unknown, I still need to move with the flow and let my physical energy do all the talking! I would wake up in the morning, pray before I get up, take a shower, primp up office attire, wait for my husband and head to work. When at work, since I usually don't eat breakfast at home, I would reserved from our canteen and eat while working. At the end of doing all my tasks for the day, I then take a break and read articles I like. I would navigate the net and look for something that would steal my interest. And then I would sneak around to view my smart phone and automatically visit my facebook page to see faces and posts of people who doesn't have anything important to do in their lives that they just have to be whole day online! I swear to heaven I could almost memorize names of many from my fb acquaintances who work full time in facebook lol. Though, I don't have anything against them, it just of course making me snide a little for hey, here I am busy bee and does not have social life, and you people is socializing full time!!!! That's unfair you know. (lol) Well back to my rants, after checking my phone for any magic of people who would remember to hit me up and ask how I am and to catch up with me, I would then put my phone down and back to business at the office. Will then make myself busy and productive because I am waiting for my regularization. I wish I will get that. Maybe it is one of the many reasons that I get anxious about. Add that its my last month of contract. Although they let me get a uniform of my own and hearing I have already a rice subsidy, I wish I could still hear and see it from a new contract that I really am have a job for as long as I want and for as long as I will perform their expected standards of work. One more thing that puts me unease was this saving I was trying to stick with. Jp and I needs to save for upcoming weekend trip this third week of September in Laguna (again) with my relatives, and also to provide important things we badly need to stuff our home so it will be more convenient and comfortable for us to stay in our apartment. We also have to save in advance our payment for the apartment. So as you can see I'm moderately anxious of all the billings on hand! Maybe because I've been only doing this for two months and it's really overwhelming! Life is not the same anymore, and life is not like bread and butter for real. And I need to stand and don't hold back because I know it will spruce up my ability to fight all the trials the life has to throw me :). I will smile this predicaments off and just savor every experiences God has blessed me. I know he have prepared the perfect feast for me and he will reward those who wait patiently and love him abundantly even without God almighty answering yet any of my hearts desire. I strongly believe that my concerns today won't take long, it will reach its end and I will have my happy bubble back. I am not sad, I'm just really weary and anxious of the unknown. So that, I have 2 hours to sit back and relax before I grind in Laguna later! Oh gosh what time will I be home tonight?? I wish traffic in Manila won't hit us on our way home. So this, my post, are consist of my complaints. I know you wouldn't consider reading a writings that's full of rants like these, but this is how I feel guys, I think I need your friendly lullaby at this very moment. Thanks for listening though.. I hope you are feeling very well my friend! Let's think happy thoughts shall we?? God bless us all!
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