So going back to where I was on this post, it's actually for my mommy. Since I missed posting something for her on the day of mothers day that many of you have already done as early as the bird chirped and the rooster crowed, It's like, there was an unspoken competition of who among have the greatest moms or who among have the sweetest, generous and genuine kid in the world hehe! At least we are all very proud of our mother, it only means that, whatever the odds are, we will never trade our mother for anything else. I know all the mom's out there were very happy hearing and seeing how their husband and children loves and appreciates them so much!
As for me, my mother is a beautiful, with porcelain like skin, stunning and the wisest and most practical woman I've ever known. She managed to take care of their four children, while my father is abroad working so we have means of living. They fight for us so many times. My mommy, she was the perfectionist, with the OCD disease that I hated when I was young. I had this rebellious phase in my life against my mommy because I couldn't understand why she was trying to control my life. This misunderstanding just continue for so many years not until I am here, right at this very phase of my life. I have become the person I thought I didn't want to be. I have become a perfectionist, I have become so wise and practical with money terms, I have become so strict with everything that goes my way. I have just become,, like my mom :) funny though, we still argue here and there, but I think its how we express how we've missed each other, we tend to give our opposite opinions, but thats where we are at our best companion. I can see now clearly why is my mother was behaving the way she behaved when I was still young. It's the fear that "what if she become incapable of giving her children the nurture and the comfortable life she's dreaming for them?" "what if, with one blink away, her children would have ruined life?" what if she had not control her children's excitement to curiosity especially on their teenage life?" It's so much of a question that all boils down what mothers fear the most. It's to fail their child to become a good person, and to have better life once they need to nest out from their offspring. I now realized how important all my mother's nagging sermon on four of us. It's her way of protecting and caring for her dear children. Sometimes the love of mother can be quite confusing, sometimes we think she hates us because she always scold at us, sometimes we thought she hates us because we thought we always fail her from what she expects us to become. There were times that we hate her, because she's forcing us away from her and abandon us to walk alone in a long, wide, dark road of our lives. We thought they are quite selfish doing that. But hey, didn't just God did the same thing to his son Jesus Christ?? The things that our parents does and pained us, are things that molded us to what we are now. When I learned to live on my own, when I committed myself to a relationship that I will be carrying for the rest of my life. I realized how important all that my mommy have taught me. I am a good person because of her. I am quite tough to face every trials in life because of her. I am looking forward to having my own family because she showed me how to managed it, although it was filled of flaws, heartaches and fights before it all dawned at me, still, I wouldn't trade these experiences I had with my mommy, I wouldn't trade my mother for anything else! She is not the perfect mother, I would admit that, she's not even the great wife on my father, that really puts my heart in so much pain, especially hearing and seeing them fight for most of times. But despite these imperfection, I will unconditionally love my mother no matter what. I will still respect her. I will still take care of her. People can begrudge her, and my enemies can use it against me, but as long as I am loving my parents (my MOMMY) I know, I will never be the loser. And NEVER, EVER try to hurt my mother because that would be the death of the world for you. That's how I love my mommy, if you would ask me how I express love to my mom, I find ways to argue with her..that is! haha!
Happy Mother's day mommy. I hope all the best in you and Papa. I love you more than you will ever know. I am proud of you and how you raised us four your children. You're quite a tough mother! But because of your toughness, I am not afraid if God would permit and give me a child of my own. I will not copy how you raised me, yet... I will be just like you.... Be the BEST MOM through thick and thin, through highs and lows. You are my biggest Idol, especially your fashion taste, I know quite names who envy and badmouth you because of the way you dress up, but who cares right?? Inggit lang sila kasi ikaw, you look young, fresh, happy and very out going, unlike those who begrudge you, they look haggard, old and insecure forever! But of course, I still want to remind you to take the freedom a bit slow, don't be too excited. I know I am embarking to mature and responsible individual, but I am still young at heart, and still need your support. So just stay put. We will forever need you in our lives, maybe not financially anymore, but emotionally ya'know???? I love you!
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| I bought this chocolate mousse cake for my mommy :) |
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| I wish our family were like an antique.. the more it gets older, and the more it lives longer. The high is the price of memories to be cherish with. <3 td=""> |
Haha shame to admit but cake was the only thoughtful gift I bought for my mother on mom's day. My sister also cooked pasta and vegetable salad (which is her favorite, you can also check out my sissy's recipe on her blogsite) as a gift of celebration on moms day. I was thinking then, maybe next year the best gift to give on mother's day would be...grannie kids waahahahah!
'God is waiting in the silence
For a heart that can He can fill;
He must find it cleansed and empty,
With spirit calm and still. - Smith'
